Month: November 2020

Looking At The Picture.

Looking at the pictures of what was us, perfect couple of what was us. The smiles of what was us. The glitter in the eyes of what was us.


Looking at the pictures, I then wonder, frozen in time of what were the happy moments. The hopes and dreams that we had for us but the camera froze in time. What happened to the love that was? An earthquake? Should I call it a heart quake that ripped through and tore us apart? And what remained was a picture in time?


Looking at the picture, I feel like crying, not tears of joy but of loss, for a love that went but here it remained…frozen in time, in a picture in my hands. Haunting me like a ghost. The Conjuring.

They say a picture speaks a1000 words, oh what the heck, this one cries too, for the love of what used to be us. In a1000 ways.


Looking at the picture, I turn away, like it’s the plague. Book of Exodus. I side away, for the hurt & pain I cannot say. For a love frozen in time…and I could never bring back.

The Creative Stimuli Of Shadray.

Out there, are so many people aspiring to become writers. Bloggers to be more precise and usually they come through looking for a number of tricks that they can use to get their game up there. From starters to those who just want to keep the juices flowing, I have collected a number of tricks that have helped me maintain the flow.

These are my top 10 tricks that personally work for me but I am sure your mind will be opened too …

1. You must first like what you’re going to write about. I mean if you the writer do not like it, why then should your readers? And if you do not like it then you will hardly find the right words to put into it. Create something that you know or hope your readers will like or you will be satisfied with the reaction that you expect them to have during or after reading your piece. This will help connect your target audience to your work same way as you are. It is so hard to get going with a piece that you have no interest in. The words will never form right. In other words, write something that you feel if it were you reading it from another writer, you will enjoy it.

2. Jackie Kay, a famed writer, once said “To be a good writer, you must be a reader. Don’t assume that you know everything.” Otherwise, how else are you going to know about things? There is so much there is to know in written and video material. Find it. Listen if you must. If you do not take up reading then why should you expect others to read your pieces?

3. Be connected to your craft. Put a part of yourself into the story. Whether you are the villain or the victim or the star. Be there. It will help you weave the right lines and the words will be as right because they will be coming from the angle that you have set yourself in. That very angle you want to tell the story from. Put the emotions where they need to be in a particular part of your story. The lines that you will make under that emotion will definitely sound right.

4. Have a muse that attracts you to write and usually have a setting that helps you think. Personally when writing, I like playing EDM music or RnB on the low while seated quietly alone in the dark. That is especially if I am writing something that is deep on emotions. There is a way I feel when the music is wafting through my ears that all the emotions evoked end up coming through my fingers on to the keyboard. Some other times it is a picture. I may see a picture and it evokes my emotions. That is why I always try to have an idea of a kind of picture I want for my work even before I get done with it just because a mental picture of it to it floods me with the right words. A right picture to a piece will always send the message first and set the mood even before the reader starts on the words. I therefore need the right kind of media that would help me experience the emotion that goes well with the piece that I am writing.

5. Always be handy with something where you can write down an idea or words the moment they hit you. To me, my phone note app is always there. Once some lines form up, I yank it out and note them down. I as well usually do it over and over again. You must write and re-write until you feel you have reached the words you feel are the right ones. If you do not have the notes app then maybe a note book or you better have a hella kind of a bank in your head to keep those words till you get where to put them. Usually words that come like that are the strongest that you need to help you form something and if you lose them and try to create something relatedly, sometimes it may never seem right.

6. Do not push yourself if you feel like the heat for your work hasn’t picked up yet. If you need to take a break, take it. It may be just what you need to get the clutter out of your mind and create space for new ideas and relief to start the next lines of your work. writer’s block is real so take it slow when it hits.

7. You need to do research where necessary. Sometimes readers are very keen that when you mess up things like geographical locations or years in a story that needs factual data, they will lose interest in your work or bash you for it. A not so good experience for a creative.

8. For those who want to grow their following, one of the golden rules is to always engage with other creatives’ works. Go over and read what they have put up. Comment, like, share. Be there and be seen. Interaction is key in building our social circles. If you do not show love on what others have put up, no one is going to show love on yours. Why should they anyway?

9. Do not lose yourself in the image of another writer. So many a times, there are people who are so good with what they do that you may reach a point in time and you want to write like them. You want to phrase and quote and produce pieces exactly the way they do theirs. Very many a times still that is the moment you are going to lose it. That is the moment the power that you have in your art and over your readers is going to get stripped away from you. Everyone has a potential following. You have or will have people that like the pieces you create just because of the unique style that you apply. The moment you try to write like someone else, may be the moment that power is going to get stripped away from you. You do not have to change everything. You can incorporate a few bits here and there while the main plot is still under your technique and voila, you become the star that you want to become or even better than your inspirations.

10. And lastly, sometimes it may reach a time when there are some people especially family and close associates that may find your work offensive or inappropriate for certain audiences. It’s a tricky one too but at times you need to be true to who you are and what makes you that kind of writer and then go right ahead and set the record straight. It may not work for them but it may be what will set you apart from all the others. I am that living example…a story for another day.

…otherwise, that is it from me about me to you for you. Happy writing.

Live Within Your Means

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So, here’s the thing. You can’t be living the lit life on social media. Attending the craziest events & hanging out at the poshest joints & you expect people to think you’re broke? Why should they? It’s visually obvious you’re sending out the message that you made it in life. I mean, you’re attending events that many out there are wishing to attend but can’t afford to. What else do you want people to perceive of that?

With this illustrated lifestyle, everything about you is expected to be fast lane, boss. Rick Ross. Including accommodation. With the life you’re flaunting out there, we then expect that you probably crash at some posh villa with inbuilt facilities, Wi-Fi, poolside, inside bar or something. I mean, if you can afford to hang out lavishly then you can definitely afford to live in a well suited house. Mansion.

Where I am driving my point to is about a Ugandan social media frenzy about this lady who was put in a daily paper by her landlord for failure to pay rent amounting to about four million Uganda shillings. I posted something about it & someone asked me whether I knew her for me to judge & I actually don’t. It is too bad the landlord went as hard as putting her up in the papers. Insane it is but crazier are the guys who wanted to organize a car wash to help raise her rent. Seriously! These are the things that are moving us now? And then we blame the government for spending money on things like the three wheeled motorcycles? LOL. But why? Those things are a joke.

I would say, people have failed to grasp the basic knowledge of spending money/ resources & by our utter ignorance we’re seemingly ready to support it. By organizing a car wash fundraiser for an apparent slay queen who failed to raise rent but can afford expensive weaves & outings.

For starters, people should learn to live within their means. If you have a job that pays you a basic 500k for example then why stay in a house that charges about 400k? How are you going to survive on the remaining 100k for a full month unless if you get free lunch & supper at your work place & it pays your power, water bills plus facilitating your transportation? Is that why some girls open brackets to survive? How are you going to save for future projects if your dream is to get wealthy legally & morally off your sweat & yet it’s some of these virtues that you’re clearly not in line with? If you’re one whose source of income is not big enough to support your lifestyle, I’d suggest you get a basic house in a basic area, keep friends that you’re able to run to in case life is not smiling your way. People you can confide in when you’re troubled & they can offer you help. Usually the people in your phone-book/ social circle are an indication of who you’re as a person. If you don’t have people who can bail you out when life is throwing Muhammad Ali punches at you then you may definitely be in need of a new set of friends.

Sometimes we do the mistake of feeding our wants & not our needs. Of following a lot of that which glitters thinking it’s all gold. Of trying so much to keep appearances instead of focusing on personal development & inner peace. Of thinking with our eyes & not the brain. Shallow. Someone told me not to judge but naturally, humans will judge first on how you appear or what image you decide to show.

Part of my anger comes from an interaction I had with someone of quite a similar type. She’s this girl who is always uploading twerking videos in groupie moments at posh joints. Her belly out, skirt short, beer glass in one hand, voice high, crop top & ass to the camera or dubbing her girls. She in boxed me one time after I don’t know how many years and without even settling into knowing how our lives have been since we last met in 2014 which should be common courtesy, she was asking me for money for some campus issue. This is someone I think finished campus about 3 years ago & when I told her I couldn’t help her, the conversation proceeded not any further. A few days later, she was at the morally controversial Nyege Nyege Festival. I was vexed.  Even if your argument may be that she might have saved for the festival, wouldn’t it seem more logical if she instead used that money to cater for her education needs than a senseless festival? Like as if it’s the festival that’s going to get her a job (unless of course if she sleeps with the right people there.)

Lead Me On.

I love you without borders. I love you like you weren’t a stranger. Before. That was then though, because right now you’re my lover. It’s like a dream boo. It’s coming through. God sent. Dream come true.

You found a way to make me surrender to you & I gave myself in to love, ignoring all my insecurities. All the love dangers. Seeing beneath my beautiful, you’re my power ranger. A life saver.

Take my hand baby & lead me to freedom. Free from the loneliness prison. Lead me to see the beauty in the world in its wholesomeness. Restore in me that was stolen, I was heartbroken but now I am willing. Call it healing. Let me walk this journey with you. No staling. Take me home. It’s high time the boy moved on. It’s been so long. Lead me on.

Finalized it listening to a cover of Heaven by Bryan Adams