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I Wish I Was Good Enough

So that I don’t have to experience the pain of having to realize that the person you love, that one who you wanted to spend the rest of your life with is not actually going to be the one to live through your life with.

I wish I was good enough so that my hopes, dreams aren’t shattered and go through that moment again of collecting broken pieces and forging forth, weathering the storm that comes with dealing with moving on blues. What a broken lover’s journey.

Having to join the University of Pain. Giving someone my time, heart, life and they trashing it like it’s nothing. Pushing me away like filth. With no remorse. No care. No sense of sympathy or empathy. Whichever fits the occasion. Being like a ghost to them. Thin air. Passed by unnoticed like a street lamp. Having to be a total opposite of what I took them to be in my life. May that day in my life never come.

I wish I was good enough so that your mind isn’t preoccupied with another man. I wish I was good enough so that I could hold unto you, never let you go, until you say you love me too, meaning it from the bottom of your heart, because I love you too.

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  1. Dear poster, you have a great post here. But I do need to let you know, you are already good enough. We never find our value by looking to others, we find our value by looking within and by looking to God. The greatness does not lie in the world, the greatness lies in you, who then has the power to do good for the world. Feeling like we are not good enough comes from a place of insecurity, from the inner voice in our heads that keeps replaying all the times that we failed. We have to cancel that voice with the voice of God. We have to look to higher places for assurance and reach for a confidence that reaches deep into us with lasting roots. To know who you are, you need to ask the God who made you about you. But remember, God would not waste his time creating a nobody, you are a somebody, and everything that God does, he does with a purpose. He is a Great and Mighty God.

    The Bible says in Joshua 1:9
    “Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be frightened, and do not be dismayed, for the Lord your God is with you wherever you go.”

    God says in Jeremiah 29:11
    “For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans for welfare and not for evil, to give you a future and a hope”.

    The Bible says in Psalm 139:13-14
    “For you formed my inward parts; you knitted me together in my mother’s womb. I praise you, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made. Wonderful are your works; my soul knows it very well”.

    Let God guide your heart, let him be the roadmap. There is healing, there is grace, there is joy, and there is clarity in the Lord. You are good enough. Believe it and rise up.

    If you want more information on how to connect with God, I have a post on it here:

    https://christcenteredruminations.wordpress.com/2018/08/29/how-to-build-a-relationship-with-god/ 

    You can check out the blog post above. If the information is too overwhelming for you, then you can start slow and work your way up gradually. If you want to stay updated and you want more posts from me, you can follow my blog. I post about God, faith and Christian Spirituality.

    If you ever need to talk, then send me a message on the “Contact” section of my page.

    May God be with you, Amen. 🙂

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  2. Your words are beautiful – I can feel the pain within them. I look forward to reading a post soon about a new love that embraces you as well.

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